Tuesday, June 30, 2009

5 weeks 3 days

Last night I was doing my daily mile-and-a-half jog, listening to my iPod. A song started playing with lyrics about how God is holding us even when we're in the womb. All of a sudden, I realized the most wonderful and comforting thing:

God loves Besido.

He loves Besido just as much as he loves me, or Dave, or you.

And just that realization had the most amazing effect on me. I broke out in a smile. I felt relief wash over me. Because whatever happens during this pregnancy, I know that God has Besido's best interests at heart. He loves him/her more than I or Dave ever will. It's so wonderful, and so freeing.

Just had to share. :)

Monday, June 29, 2009

5 weeks 2 days

The craziest thing happened last night. After sleeping for some time, I all of a sudden woke up yelling, and my right hip was completely cramping up. I of course woke Dave up too, and he tried to massage it as I kept yelling. Tears were pouring down my face. The cramping probably lasted 30 seconds, but it was so severe. Afterwards I still felt a throbbing pain as I tried to fall back asleep.

This morning I barely remembered the incident, but I have a tight painful feeling in my hip as a reminder. I have no idea what caused the cramp. I did some reading online, and it sounds like hip cramps are common in the second and third trimesters, but definitely not so early in the pregnancy. The only suggestions were that it could be due to the Relaxin flowing through my body. I read some comments from other girls around my stage in pregnancy who were runners and found their hips to be very sore. It could be a result of the same thing, I suppose. So bizarre. I may need to find some exercise other than running, and I will definitely have to ask the doctor when I go for my first appt on July 8th.

I also had my first breakdown about my bloating this morning. I couldn't find a single outfit that fit the way it should, and I just laid down on the bed and started crying. (I'm rather dramatic at times, and pregnancy hormones don't help.) Dave suggested I wear one of my new pregnancy shirts, and I exclaimed, "But I'm not supposed to look pregnant yet!!" (I don't want people at work knowing for a while longer.) He responded, "Oh yeah." I finally picked myself up and put back on one of the shirts I'd rejected. Dave says he doesn't think it's as obvious to others as it is to me. I sure hope not. I'll be sucking it in as much as possible today to be sure, though.

Ahhh, pregnancy. :)

Saturday, June 27, 2009

5 weeks even

One of Besido's pictures changed today!! Whoohoo!! He/she is growing up so fast. *tear*

Still wearing sports bras. Still bloated. Got tired early last night and thought fatigue might be beginning to set in. However, it's 9pm and I'm not tired tonight. Of course, I took a 2 hour nap today. That might have something to do with it. :)

Mom L. told me Thursday night that she has a gut feeling Besido is a girl. We'll see. Just wanted to document it now in case she's right. :)

Alright I'm at Starbucks right now (our home internet isn't working) and I think it's about time to head home and climb under the covers. (Gotta get my shuteye!!)

God bless and goodnight.

Friday, June 26, 2009

4 weeks 6 days

I officially love cheese and fruit popsicles. I think I could eat them all day long. Granted, I did like eating these items before, but Besido has taken my desire for cheese and fruit popsicles to a whole new level. They taste absolutely amazing.

I am getting a little tired of wearing a sports bra every hour of the day (and night) except the 20 minutes I'm in the shower. However, it's the only way to keep the pain at bay. I have to wear two of them when I go running (which I've been doing daily...with the amount I've been eating, I NEED to work out). (And yes, all you mothers, I do realize that I will gain weight and fat. But I'm only supposed to gain 2 to 5 pounds in the first trimester and about 1 pound per week for the rest of the pregnancy. At the rate I'm going, I'm going to gain 5 pounds by next weekend.)

On another note, by today Besido's amniotic sac has grown to about the size of a grape. Why, no wonder I'm so bloated!! I have a grape inside my uterus!! (*Rolling my eyes.* Why, exactly, is my stomach distended like there's a giant balloon inside of me when Besido's house is only the size of a grape??) It's kind of funny, the countdown at the top of the blog shows a picture of "me" with a bigger belly already. Obviously, no one should look like that when their baby is small enough to sit on the tip of a ballpoint pen and their baby's house is the size of a grape. However, this image matches my figure much more than you realize. It really is pretty close to what I look like. It makes me laugh.

So every day I go to this blog so I can see what Besido looks like. And every day he/she looks like a swollen tadpole hooked to a rope. I can't wait till he/she gets some toes or something. Maybe an eyeball or two. Something that helps me believe I'm building a child and not a frog. (When does the cuteness begin???)

Alright, off to continue with my daily activities.


Wednesday, June 24, 2009

4 weeks 4 days

I got three new pregnancy books in the mail yesterday, and I'm super excited about them.

Here they are:

The 40 Weeks Devotional Guide is pretty awesome so far. I've read one chapter, and the book does a great job incorporating God into everything and of reminding you to lean on Him in faith instead of worrying about everything and trying to control it all.

The Joy of Pregnancy I've only read a bit of, but I really wanted it after glancing through it in Borders the night we found out we were pregnant. It doesn't just talk about pregnancy basics, but it also focuses on your emotions and your life, it has questions and answers from other women, and it helps prepare you for labor.

When the Belly Button Pops was rated highly by reviewers, and I also found it on a Christian website. So I thought it might be a good book to read, also.

Once I finish all these books (which will probably take me a while), I'll work on getting some baby books so I know what to do with the little bundle of joy once it's out of my body and in my arms.

Symptoms haven't been horrible so far, although I am SOOO bloated that I seriously look 5 months pregnant. No joke. I am currently sitting at work with my pants unbuttoned, because if I button them up they poke me in the stomach and make me nauseous. I did some research online last night and read in some forums, and it sounds like quite a few women have this problem early in pregnancy. I'm glad I'm not alone. Why don't they tell you these things in the pregnancy sections on websites? I haven't read anywhere, "Oh, by the way, your belly is likely to bloat out to the point where you cannot button your pants and you wonder if you were mistaken and you're actually 5 months pregnant instead of 5 weeks. Do not worry, this is a common occurence and will eventually subside." Nope, they leave it to us puffy-bellied women to figure out on our own. Thanks so much.

Oh, and my chest is now nearly too big for most everything I own except my sports bras, which I have been wearing to bed and to work all week. And I'm only at 4 weeks 4 days. They say the peak growth begins at 6 weeks. I can't wait.

Other than that, pregnancy is great so far. Every day Dave and I read together from a pregnancy journal I bought (picture below). It gives us a daily update on what's going on with Besido inside. Pretty neat. :)

Alright off I go.
Love you all!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009


Hey all you family and friends!

I thought I'd put a site together for all of you far-away loved ones who cannot watch my tummy grow on a daily basis. This way you'll be able to hear about and see the changes as they happen.

The site is called "Baby Besido" because "Besido" is what Dave and I call our baby. A messed-up text message to Evan many months ago started it all. I was joking around with Evan about baby names, and meant to send him a text saying that we were going to call our first baby "Adrienne" (not for real...although I don't have anything against that name). However, my phone thought "Besido" was a more common word than "Adrienne", and so I looked down and realized I had sent Evan a message saying, "we'll call him Besido". I was like oh man my brother is going to think I'm nuts. So I quickly wrote back explaining the mishap, and Evan was quite relieved, haha. However, I thought the incident was pretty funny, and the name "Besido" has stuck ever since. :)

(And to all you paranoid parents or grandparents out there, don't worry...we're not going to keep the name after the baby is born.)

Hope you enjoy the site!

Love you all!